心情隨筆 *~人妖洗手間~* 胡言亂語

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心冷
麻木
退卻
一個人
也麻木

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不知道什麽時候發覺
在皮膚上划出無數的浮腫粉色綫條
刺痛   痲痲的   熱辣辣的
把傷痛
移轉到綫條上
輕鬆多了~

至少
心不會痛
身體上的疼痛
絕不會比心痛來的痛苦
衣物放下來   遮起來
就沒人發現這痕跡

殊不知
原來
這就是人家所謂的 “自殘”
還以爲是自己發現的新招
阿奶奶的
原來這自創的魔法早就在世間流傳
而且還是啦啦的專用法
當下就遺棄了這不是外學而來的自覺法

但是
還很留念這魔法
有時候
真的很想再次划下去
把熱辣辣的心揪釋放 partially
不再揪燒那麽痛

但我不是啦啦
也不想被當作啦啦
被啦啦影衰西~！

navyblue

原帖由 目米眯杳 于 21-3-2009 11:16 AM 发表
我也想要買這個 1set ~~  







http://lh4.ggpht.com/_CBRF5u2swQo/SbYFtc_g3bI/AAAAAAAAAak/dkqvLnJ ...

clubbing 一次就不止這個數目了

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也許
從此以後
又再是一個人了吧
信不信
不信
沒有東西不是万變的
除了空與無



[ 本帖最后由 目米眯杳 于 25-3-2009 03:51 PM 编辑 ]

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[ 本帖最后由 目米眯杳 于 28-4-2009 11:25 AM 编辑 ]

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右手牽左手   習性麻木
左手忽然要去牽右手
右手已經牽住人家的手

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誰都不要
誰都不信
就只要一個
一個癌腫瘤寶貝

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有點失落
有點撲空的感覺
期望落空
是時機未到？
或是命中無緣？

還真是有人歡喜有人憂。。。。。

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有些人駕車只是80km/hr
就以爲自己很快那樣
霸著 3th lane 不放，跟著 2nd lane 在那邊平行
不會覺得自己跟前面的車相隔很~~~~~~~~~~~~~~遠的咩？
不會覺得前面很~~~~~~~~~~~~空的咩？
不會覺得後面整排車跟著自己貼得很~~~~~~~~~~~~~~緊的咩？
真想大大聲鳥他： 你以爲你的懶叫很大啊？？！！！ :@

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四月后
公司總結完成后
一切都告一段落后
我該撇下手上的擁有   辭職再從頭開始另作打算
或是該直接回歸原土   直接撇去一切

趁這個還沒有權挂的時候
也沒有背負責任的時候
最佳時間   撒手放開   全面而退

趁這段不會有人為我刻心的時候
頂多也是傷心1、2下，幾個月后就釋懷了
趕快急速離去
不留下痕跡
頂多留下風影

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喜歡一個人   注重一個人
是沒有理由的
是沒得改變的
所給的理由   也是爲了編出理由而給出的理由
這種沒辦法的事   死死也得吞下去接受

但是
仍然還會為講過的話不算數而不忿
出爾反爾
把說過給我的東西   假手于人
把原本是我拿回來的東西   也當作是屬於別人的   假手于人
那些說要給我的東西   更不需要說保障
說不會發生的東西   都一再出現了
說不會讓踩進來   結果人家在自由進出   進而還再歡迎光臨
是不尊敬   或根本不把我的存在當作一回事
算我小氣   算我小心眼   算我小人
我請辭~
你們有那一個就夠了

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某人說
很後悔修了engineering   因爲用不上
所以跑去再進修 medical health
我只可以說：你並沒有appreciate/尊敬你學過的知識

我反而是希望再去進修 machinery 的 engineering...
好羡慕~
看機器的運作的撞動
好崇拜~~！ @o@
有沒有 part time mechanical engineering course @x@
physic 萬歲~ \( ^O^ )/



[ 本帖最后由 目米眯杳 于 7-4-2009 11:24 AM 编辑 ]

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原帖由 啊心 于 2-4-2009 05:59 PM 发表

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人****的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

看了全部故事
其它的還不怎樣
就只有這一句
單單這一句
如果真的看到了
眼前就正在展現這一幕
絕對絕對
頓時
當下
腦袋一轟   
晴天霹靂   
思想一片空白
只剩下揪痛
不想要下一秒仍然還在呼吸著
世界在那一刻頓時落幕完結
多好。。。。。。
活著   還有什麽意義？
自己一路來的存在   到底是什麽意義？

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就算是單單睡覺而以
睡着了
也覺得安心

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有時候覺得太久沒大幅度活動了
四肢有點死牢筋了
該動動下舒下筋骨
該做什麽來運動下筋骨呢
打架！

講到那麽厲害
到時候真的有人來打劫的時候
都不知道敢不敢一反手，手刀劈下去
死穴一粒給他倒地

好久好久真的好久沒打架了
好懷戀~

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最近老是看錯東西
不知道是最近磁場不對   專注力不能夠集中
或是眼睛長了怪毛病   視覺的對焦出問題


case 1
超市有一把屠刀
出廠商還給它取了個名字
叫 軟骨刀
笑死我
那麽有本事？能夠砍骨的就叫做軟骨刀？軟骨了還怎麽去砍骨哦~
結果另一個才笑到彎腰
大大聲說：哪裏是軟骨！是斬骨刀啦！
可、可是
我剛才真的看了很多次
是 “軟” 哦~


case 2
去吃雞飯
看到 menu 上寫有 胸  翼  背  腿  毛
嚇？？！！！ 毛？？！！！
雞飯店有賣雞毛？？！！！
哪有可能？？！！！
多看幾次，還真的是 “毛” 咧~~
沒有可能的！！
轉個視線再重看！！
原來是個 尾 字。。。。。


不過最近看東西還真是好象狀況不太妙
沒喝酒卻總是看到字在搖晃/分身
莫名其妙的眼睛。。。。。 =x=

目米眯杳

啊哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~！！
經典！！！
quote 起來下~~

原帖由 华侨 于 15-4-2009 12:49 PM 发表
据广告宣传，是治阳萎的。
不知是单用推拿按摩法，还是配合药物？

让你起不了变了不起 =>
"让你『起不了』变『了不起』"   还是
"让你『起不了』变了『不起』?

目米眯杳

總是心跳不律+呼吸不順+胸悶作嘔+頭昏
醫學來説
有這種現象   都不是好事
嚴重點的話   分分鐘會卦掉~

不知道是因爲天氣異常變化熱
或是這個月的工作壓力大
或兩者一起

說工作壓力
自問有沒有壓力
不覺得有~
但是隱約覺得有壓力

也許我壓抑工作壓力的技巧太好了
每每都是身體的變化
才知道自己正在承受巨壓
腦袋哦~   太樂觀了吧~
總是認爲是小事~
總是認爲沒問題，一定可以行得通的~



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目米眯杳

很想割下去
好幾個月了
這念頭還沒退去
時機到
放下一切
割下去
擱下去
一了百了

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